Mothers' Day

Becoming a mother brings a new perspective of reality, a joining into a continuation of a pattern of relationship as old as humanity, a coming around the circle from being a child of a mother, to being that mother.  It is a relationship in which mother and child dance a primal dance together, grappling with what it means to be human. 

With great difficulty and love and amazement, we learn from one another, gudie each other as teacher and student simaltaneously.  It is a sacred experience, in that all of life is sacred, but the divine aspect is perhaps more than usually emphasized in the intimate role we play in the life of our mother, she in ours, we in the life of our child, they in ours. 

We are given a mantle of responsiblity, the weighty, joyous task of peering into the wide eyes of this little human and discerning what is needed, what inner passions exist, what potential lies within, what direction can we offer to help this person unfold.  In return that ancient-new wise-innocent gaze offers to show us day by day how to become the guide that is needed, offering moment by moment lessons in becoming a human worth being a leader, a mother. 

And in becoming a mother, we are able to look with great compassion and gratitude to the one who mothered us, and who mothered her, and her, back through the generations of humanity and know that each of us is doing the best we can from our level of understanding.

Accepting Love

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” ~ Rumi

 

In spite of being surrounded by other humans, a pervasive sense of loneliness seems to be a common human experience.  It can be frustrating to try to form deep connections that feel fulfilling, to feel like the other person sees who you are, and accepts you for that person.  In return, our own expectations and personal ideas about what love and true understanding look and feel like can keep us from seeing the love available to us.  Everyone has the same desire to love, to be loved.  Think about that.  If every person in your life feels the same ache of longing for love and understanding you do, what does that mean for our relationships?  I have been thinking about this idea, of working on learning to accept the love that people have to give, not the love I think they should give.  If I hold it against someone that they can't "love" me the way I expect them to, and in return if I close myself off to receiving the love they do offer, I am the one keeping myself from love, not the other person.  I am working right now at listening to myself as though I am my own beloved (because I am!), and if I struggle daily to give myself the kind of true love I want from someone else, how can I be surprised that I don't receive that love from others?  If I judge someone else and find something lacking in the level and quality of their love then perhaps what I am looking for is not something in them, but something in me that needs my own attention and love.  Love is patient.

The Nothing

I dreamed, and in my dream I thought

"It is the Nothing, only instead of being afraid and running from it, people are glad, and leaping into it."

Sometimes it can seem easier to give up and allow yourself to sink into despair.  That is not the path of least resistence, only a lie that tells you it is.  Working hard day after day at changing your life requires a lot of effort and can seem tiring, but that is a misunderstanding.  In the short term, giving up seems easy, but in the long term doing the work is the only way to avoid being devoured.  We are not meant to give ourselves over to destruction.  Transformation is possible, understanding is attainable, peace is one breath away.  

Self Determination

Each of us is capable of marvelous things.  All of us have a "best self" we feel we are meant to be.  If you feel overwhelmed when you think of that, and have a sense that you are waiting on an external higher power to someday make changes for you, you are suffering from a habit of wrong thinking, a holding pattern that keeps you stuck that does not line up with the nature of how the Divine works.  As humans we have been granted an abundance of power, ability, strength, the magical, wonderous, free-will right to choose for ourselves and to co-create our own lives.  It takes work, dedication, intention, perseverance and belief, but it is absolutely possible.  Don't wait.  Listen to the things that stir up your passion and head in that direction, not waiting for anything or letting yourself fall back on old habits.  The old ways of doing and thinking and being that do not serve your growing best self are ready to fall away.  The joy and peace and sense of accomplishment of fiving all your attention and efforts to being your best self are yours for the taking.  If that seems like too much, start with just clearing your mind by following your long deep breathing, and expand your awareness to the things in you and around you right  now that are bringing you joy.  It is worth the effort, I promise.   

Challenge

 

I am capable of more.  Let's see how much.  Training begins now. 

Steps on the Path

Clarity of purpose and sureness of your path ahead comes out of having been through uncertainty and confusion.  Having experienced the dark, you can understand what the Light is. 

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Meridians Part 1

I am studying alternative medicine, currently learning about the body's electromagnetic energy system and the meridians.

Electromagnetic Energy is a unified field that presents with countless "faces"- matter is congealed energy.  Every matter formation (person, cell, organ, system) has it's own "local energy language" as well as the shared universal language. 

The Meridian network is an energy transportation system connected with the body.  I has 14 pathways which are river-like in nature, rising and falling like tides.  All the pathways are part of one continuous energy flow-system, appearing as 12 linked segments, extending to the two additional pathways, the governing and central paths.  These last two are open to the environment, with energies entering and exiting here. 

One of my study aides is my model-doll Tesla, today I did the central and governing meridians.